I don’t know if this helps, but I was in your position and I found that when I started eating well and exercising and focused on doing it for my mind and to clear my head rather than weight loss, the extra pounds melted away without me noticing. I’ve found if you keep thinking about how much you need to lose, you’ll always need to lose it if that makes sense. Good luck!

Thank you for the advice! I’m beginning to think that’s how I should see it too. Starting is the hardest part. Just need to get a better mindset and take that first step. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I’m not happy with my body. I’ve gained most of what I lost two years ago. I know I can do better. I need to get healthier. I want to be healthier. I need a plan of action. Something needs to change. Soon. 

 I am leaving these thoughts here so I can get them to leave my brain and then I can do better. I don’t need sympathy or people giving me side-eyes. I just needed to yell into the void.